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On coming back with Kitty from the springs, the Prince, who had asked the colonel, and Marya Eugenyevna, and Varenka all to come and have coffee with them, gave orders for a table and chairs to be taken into the tiny garden under the chestnut tree, and lunch to be laid there. The landlord and the servants, too, grew brisker under the influence of his good spirits. They knew his openhandedness; and half an hour later the invalid doctor from Hamburg, who lived on the top floor, looked enviously out of his window at the merry party of healthy Russians assembled under the chestnut tree. In the trembling circles of shadow cast by the leaves, at a table covered with a white cloth, and set with coffeepot, bread, butter, cheese, and cold game, sat the Princess in a high cap with lilac ribbons, distributing cups and sandwiches. At the other end sat the Prince, eating heartily, and talking loudly and merrily. The Prince had spread out near him his purchases - carved boxes, and knickknacks, and paper knives of all sorts, of which he had bought a heap at every watering place, and bestowed them upon everyone, including Lieschen, the servant girl, and the landlord, with whom he jested in his comically bad German, assuring him that it was not the water had cured Kitty, but his splendid cookery - especially his plum soup. The Princess laughed at her husband for his Russian ways, but she was more lively and good-humored than she had been all the while she had been at the waters. The colonel smiled, as he always did, at the Prince's jokes, but as far as regards Europe, of which he believed himself to be making a careful study, he took the Princess's side. The goodhearted Marya Eugenyevna simply roared with laughter at everything absurd the Prince said, and his jokes made Varenka helpless with feeble but infectious laughter, which was something Kitty had never seen before. .www.sigmund-freud.co.uk.
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`I must be going home,' said Varenka, getting up, and again she broke out laughing. When she had recovered, she said good-by, and went into the house to get her hat.
Kitty followed her. Even Varenka struck her as different. She was not inferior, but different from what she had fancied her before.
`Oh, dear! It's a long while since I've laughed so much!' said Varenka, gathering up her parasol and her handbag. `What a dear your father is!'
Kitty did not speak.
`When shall I see you again?' asked Varenka.
`Maman meant to go and see the Petrovs. Won't you be there?' said Kitty, to try Varenka.
`Yes,' answered Varenka. `They're getting ready to go away, so I promised to help them pack.'
`Well, I'll come too, then.'
`No, why should you?'
`Why not? Why not? Why not?' said Kitty, opening her eyes wide, and clutching at Varenka's parasol, so as not to let her go. `No, wait a minute - why not?'
`Oh, nothing; your father has come, and, besides, they will feel awkward at your helping.'
`No, tell me why you don't want me to be often at the Petrovs? You don't want me to - why not?'
`I didn't say that,' said Varenka quietly.
`No, please tell me!'
`Tell you everything?' asked Varenka.
`Everything, everything!' Kitty assented.
`Well, there's really nothing of any consequence; only that Mikhail Alexeievich' (that was the artist's name) `had meant to leave earlier, and now he doesn't want to go away,' said Varenka, smiling.
`Go on, go on!' Kitty urged impatiently, looking somberly at Varenka.
`Well, and for some reason Anna Pavlovna told him that he didn't want to go because you are here. Of course, that was nonsense; but there was a dispute over it - over you. You know how irritable these sick people are.'
Kitty, scowling more than ever, kept silent, and Varenka went on speaking alone, trying to soften or soothe her, and seeing a storm coming - she did not know whether of tears or of words.
`So you'd better not go... You understand; you won't be offended?...'
`And it serves me right! And it serves me right!' Kitty cried quickly, snatching the parasol out of Varenka's hand, and avoiding looking at her friend's face.
Varenka felt inclined to smile, looking at her friend's childish fury, but she was afraid of wounding her.
`How does it serve you right? I don't understand,' she said.
`It serves me right, because it was all sham; because it was all done on purpose, and not from the heart. What business had I to interfere with outsiders? And so it's come about that I'm the cause of a quarrel, and that I've done what nobody asked me to do. Because it was all a sham! A sham! A sham!...'
`A sham? With what object?' said Varenka gently.
`Oh, it's so idiotic! So hateful! There was no need whatever for me... Nothing but sham!' she said, opening and shutting the parasol.
`But with what object?'
`To seem better to people, to myself, to God; to deceive everyone. No! Now I won't descend to that. One could be bad; but anyway not a liar, not a cheat.'
`But who is a cheat?' said Varenka reproachfully. `You speak as if...'
But Kitty was in one of her gusts of fury, and she would not let her finish.
`I don't talk about you - not about you at all. You're perfection. Yes, yes, I know you're all perfection; but what am I to do if I'm bad? This would never have been if I weren't bad. So let me be what I am, but not to be a sham. What have I to do with Anna Pavlovna? Let them go their way, and me go mine. I can't be different.... And yet it's not that, it's not that.'
`What is it?' asked Varenka in bewilderment.
`Everything. I can't act except from the heart, and you act from principle. I simply liked you, but you most likely only wanted to save me, to improve me.'
`You are unjust,' said Varenka.
`But I'm not speaking of other people, I'm speaking of myself.'
`Kitty,' they heard her mother's voice, `come here, show papa your necklace.'
Kitty, with a haughty air, without making peace with her friend, took the necklace in a little box from the table and went to her mother.
`What's the matter? Why are you so red?' her mother and father said to her with one voice.
`Nothing,' she answered. `I'll be back directly,' and she ran back.
`She's still here,' she thought. `What am I to say to her? Oh, dear! What have I done, what have I said? Why was I rude to her? What am I to do? What am I to say to her?' thought Kitty, and she stopped in the doorway.
Varenka in her hat and with the parasol in her hands was sitting at a table examining the parasol spring which Kitty had broken. She lifted her head.
`Varenka, forgive me, do forgive me,' whispered Kitty, going up to her. `I don't remember what I said. I...'
`I really didn't mean to hurt you,' said Varenka, smiling.
Peace was made. But with her father's coming all the world in which she had been living was transformed for Kitty. She did not give up everything she had learned, but she became aware that she had deceived herself in supposing she could be what she wanted to be. Her eyes were, it seemed, opened; she felt all the difficulty of maintaining herself without hypocrisy and self-conceit on the pinnacle to which she had wished to mount. Moreover, she became aware of all the dreariness of the world of sorrow, of sick and dying people, in which she had been living. The efforts she had made to like it seemed to her intolerable, and she felt a longing to get back quickly into the fresh air, to Russia, to Ergushovo, where, as she knew from letters, her sister Dolly had already gone with her children.
But her affection for Varenka did not wane. Parting Kitty begged her to come to them in Russia.
`I'll come when you get married,' said Varenka.
`I shall never marry.'
`Well, then, I shall never come.'
`Well, then, I shall be married simply for that. Mind now, remember your promise,' said Kitty.
The doctor's prediction was fulfilled. Kitty returned home, to Russia, cured. She was not as gay and thoughtless as before, but she was serene. Her Moscow troubles had become a memory to her.
? Leo Tolstoy